315 ::not a perfect birthday::

Tajuk english tp post dlm bahasa melayu ... curl.....lass gitu

Alhamdulillah I'm 24 y.o. satu ritual yg x pernah miss sejak fb diperkenalkan aku akan wish kembar lain mak & bapak masing kawan sejak maresmart. Sorg laki sorg pompuan. Sejak aku ade fb baru, aku x wt benda tu. Sedih. Yup!!! Aku si gadis cengeng.

Pengalaman mengajar aku jadi cengeng. Aku makin kenal erti hidup. Alhamdulillah.

24 tahun. Bukan makin muda. Tapi makin tua. Byk kesilapan n kesalahan yang aku buat. Tapi itu semua pengalaman hidup. 

Kalau korang tanye aku 4 bulan lepas. What was the biggest mistake that you have made in your life?
Jawapan aku 4 bulan lepas adlh keluar dari sek men keb agama slim river.
Kalau soklan tu ditanya pada aku sekrg... its going to be a totally different answer.

Hidup bukan selalu manis. Bukan selalu senyum. 4 bulan aku menangis.  4 bulan ak menganggur. Alhamdulillah aku x meroyan. Aku lari. Betul. Aku lari. Tapi aku mmg perlu lari. Mungkin ade yang berkecil hati. Tapi please!!! Take a moment & think!!!. If u r in my shoe what would u do?

Bukan aku x kesahkan korg. Bukan aku x rindu. Tapi pernah x korg pikir Y did I ran away from u guys. I nid time. Please I'm begging u. Give me time. Don't push it.

Dah agak jarang aku nangis. Dulu maybe dh mcm every 2hour aku nangis. Skrg qid. Its good. Tapi korg dh mula push aku. Please. Aku xnk lari lagi dah. Believe me. If u push me dlm keadaan aku x bersedia. I ran away. AGAIN!!!. This time u wouldn't find me unless u r working same place as I am.

Give me time. Stop pushing me.

Its my birthday. It was the worse birthday that I had. Menangis setiap jam.

Post kali ni aku emo. Blamed d hormone n the date.

Kalau aku boleh... nak je tempah ect.. biaq lupe sume!!! Tapi x boleh. Hence, let time cure it.

P/s: quran isn't there to eliminate sadness, it's there to navigate it in healthy way. 

Friends almost always leave u. Family might be there for u. But ALLAH always be there for u.